Today I was surprised by how I was not overwhelmed by some pretty big things, but then taken aback at how hurt I was by the smaller things. That really took me by surprise. Then a far away friend just let me be - over the phone talking like we always do (albeit less often now) for hours. And when we stopped talking I realised that while she felt near, the near friends just seemed so very far away. And now I am back to being surprised - this time though at just how overwhelmed I am. So full circle I guess for now, but tomorrow will be better.